Absolutely Nothing


"Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
           he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
           because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
           and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
           and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
           took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
           with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
           Valentine signed with a row of X's
           and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night 
And was always there to do it. 

Once on a piece of paper with blue lines 
           he wrote a poem 
And he called it "Autumn" 
           because that was the name of the season 
And that's what it was all about 
And his teacher gave him an A 
           and asked him to write more clearly 
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door 
           because of its new paint 
And the kids told him 
           that Father Tracy smoked cigars 
And left the butts on the pews 
And sometimes they would burn holes 
That was the year his sister got glasses 
           with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed 
           when he asked her to go see Santa Claus 
And the kids told him why 
           his mother and father kissed a lot  
And his father never tucked him in bed at night  
And his father got mad 
           when he cried for him to do it.  

Once on a paper torn from his notebook 
           he wrote a poem 
And he called it "Innocence: A Question" 
           because that was the question about his girl 
And that's what it was all about 
And his professor gave him an A 
           and a strange steady look 
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door 
           because he never showed her
That was the year Father Tracy died 
And he forgot how the end 
           of the Apostle's Creed went 
And he caught his sister 
           making out on the back porch 
And his mother and father never kissed 
           or even talked 
And the girl around the corner 
           wore too much makeup 
That made him cough when he kissed her 
           but he kissed her anyway
           because that was the thing to do 
And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed 
           his father snoring soundly. 

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag 
           he tried another poem 
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing" 
Because that's what it was really all about 
And he gave himself an A 
           and a slash on each damned wrist 
And he hung it on the bathroom door 
           because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen."
 by Osoanon Nimuss
in "The Perks of being a Wallflower", Stephen Chbosky

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